About Me

Hello! I'm Lamees, I'm also called Lala, I am female, a Muslimah, live in Saudi Arabia, on the autistic spectrum, and in my late twenties. I love drawing, pastel colours, frills and lace, swimming, sweets, roleplaying, strawberries, nature, and animals!

I'm currently watching: Fruits Basket Season 2, My Next Life as a Villainesss, Candy Candy, Little Memole, and Kuroshitsuji (dropped for now!).
I'm currently reading: A Little Princess, The Devil and Miss Prym, Dear Daddy-Long-Legs, Howl's Moving Castle, The Diary of Anne Frank, Plant Doll (manga) and What Katy Did.

My favourite artists include Osamu Tezuka, Uchida Yoshimi, Ooshima Yumiko, Tanemura Arina, Takeuchi Naoko, Takahashi Macoto, Akaishi Michiyo, Itoh Ikuko, Tamagawa Akihiro, Fukuyama Keiko, and Okumura Mariko.
As for artists online, I follow and admire nsmmm, itukai, Sweet May (may3104 or picca_), and many others.
My favourite season is winter (my region only has cold, rainy winters and hot, humid summers! I prefer it to two variations of hot and sweltering in the region I went to college in ^^;;).
I love rainy days.

I'm very nostalgic and love revisiting things from my childhood, I also love vintage fashion and illustrations, even if I'm not very knowledgeable about them! I especially love the quicker pace and charming aesthetics of old anime and manga (particularly the palettes of the traditionally animated era and those watercolour backgrounds!), as well as the the more innocent and chaste, idealized love stories of old shoujo (I'm aware it isn't very "realistic," but I like it as a fantasy, most newer stuff and even some niche older stuff is too sexual for me, and I also have no interest in scandalous stories of cheating, etc.).
I like to press fallen flowers (I don't like cutting living ones, but I'll try to take care of cut flowers we recieve with fresh water and a bit of sugar each day for as long as they last!). I used to have a collection of pressed flowers from nearly every region and country I visited, but I've had to restart the collection. ♥
I like to recycle the ribbons on packaging (tied the ribbon from a bouquet to make a bow around my plush pegasus' neck!).
I like to collect Little Twin Stars' merchandise.
The Little Mermaid was my first special interest and I've collected a lot of things relating to Ariel (the Disney version was my first exposure!) and Hans Christian Andersen's original fairy tale, or even just random mermaid-themed things... mama brought me a plate from Turkey depicting a mermaid statue!
I admire Lolita fashion* [no relation to Vladmir's novel about a predator grooming a child or the resulting nymphet/Lolita subculture online, this innocent fashion only shares the name because the Japanese people behind it wanted a diminutive, European girls' name to fit the style inspired by historical European dress], but can't afford it yet, not even the indie Taobao stuff, much less Innocent World, but it's a dream for the future! I like to collect things that could suit the style (like ruffled blouses, lace gloves, lace headbands, old-fashioned dresses, etc.)! I love the whimsical, childlike charm of it, the Rococo dress and Victorian children's clothes influence, the poofy sillhoettes, and the ladylike elegance and storybook charm, I love that it's feminine, but relatively modest and wasn't designed to appeal to the male gaze at all (boys and men initially found it weird and off-putting, although as it became trendier in Japan, they started to be gross about it too...). I also like that it can easily be adjusted to suit a hijabi too (see this video interviewing Malaysian Lolita)! ♥

Although I don't regularly watch a lot of the newer (XY, SuMo) series as much (although I love and enjoy PM19/Journeys!), I've been a fan of the Pokemon anime (especially OS->BW!) for the longest time. It remains my biggest, most mainstream fandom, I still draw fanart of it, roleplayed from it for the longest time, etc.! XY was my least favourite (I like the humans-in-harmony-with-nature world, trainer-Pokemon bond, adventures, and friendship stories way more than Pokemon battles, I prefer Pokemon Contests to Showcases, Serena's promising but the way she was handled early on bothers me...). Sun & Moon, I liked during its plot-based episodes and more serious stories (Mallow's mother, the Minior episode, etc.), especially episodes focusing on Lillie!

I love Osamu Tezuka's works! My favourites include Black Jack (I have an old fansite dedicated to Black Jack x Pinoko here [although the pictures are gone ^^;;;]), Dororo, Unico, and Angel's Hill. I grew up with Kimba the White Lion, Metropolis, and Astro Boy. I also read a couple of his lesser known manga...

I also grew up with Chibi Maruko-chan, Doraemon, and World Masterpiece Theater anime (like Nobody's Girl Remi, Romeo's Blue Skies, My Daddy Long Legs, etc.). Beautiful Soldier Sailor Moon was also one of my first fandoms, I got into it and Full Moon (w)o Sagashite around the same time I got into Pokemon (in fact, a Rocketshipping Sailor Moon/Pokemon crossover fanfic was my introduction to both fandoms)! Princess Tutu was also an early fandom of mine and one that remains dear to my heart to this day.

I've more recently gotten into old shoujo, I especially love Alpen Rose, The Star of Cottonland, Rose of Versailles and have a soft spot for Hikari no Pansy.

I didn't interact much with my peers as a kid and mostly spoke English because we had cable early on—my dad was the second ever person to have cable TV in Saudi Arabia back then! It wasn't officially available, he brought folks over from a nearby country to set it up... so I watched the Disney channel and Nickelodeon, played a lot of educational PC games.

Back then, I didn't know very much Arabic! I did watch some old anime like Doraemon and Maruko-chan growing up, so I knew a tiny bit of classical/fus-ha Arabic, but it wasn't much and I rather disliked most dubs (we had two channels before cable and if I caught a cartoon in English, then saw the Arabic dub, I'd notice what's missing or changed, and feel put off!)... when I got into Pokemon when I was around 11/12, I had two options! Watch the newest AG episodes from Japan raw and hunt down the channel that was still airing the Arabic dub then! (It was still the dial-up era). So, the way I improved my Arabic skills enough to understand people better and read Quran was my special interest in Pokemon leading me to watch the Arabic dub! Isn't that unique?
In terms of speaking, I would default to classical Arabic/fus-ha Arabic because that's what most anime were dubbed in, but that's fine, as speakers of any dialect of Arabic can be expected to understand it, but my last few years of college, living alone in another region, had me acquiring a different accent from the place I grew up!

While I hated reading as a little kid because of school, when Pottermania boomed in the 90's, I got into reading thanks to the movies piquing my curiosity! I improved my writing even more by getting into roleplaying on Neopets (it's like a prose-style collaborative writing where everyone plays a different character interacting with others!). I even thought I might become an author someday.Now, I'm mostly just content to ocassionally roleplay or write fics every few years, but I do still love the idea of writing and/or illustrating children's books someday! I did achieve my other childhood dream of getting comics published in the Neopian times... multiple times, I even collaborated once with patjade, one of my inspirations!

(CW: ritual abuse, CSA, mention of age gap ships) I was a victim of csa and ritual abuse as a child (like the 90's cases written off as"satanic panic," but milder). I understand that the fluffy and idealized, non-sexual age gap ships I like in stories cannot possibly exist in a healthy or safe way now, we're socialized and raised as children for much longer, there are inherent power imbalances, etc. It's a coping mechanism.
Thank you for understanding and if you don't, well, I'm sorry you don't have much sympathy for those in situations you cannot imagine, and I hope you eventually mature past fandom purity politics and learn to have empathy for real survivors in cultures and circumstances different from your own. I think it's dehumanizing that western fandom expects details of strangers' trauma: this isn't for you. I first added this for other victims on (10/5/2020), when a hashtag was trending on twitter to criminalize pedophilia./CW

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